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Moved.
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| Cause you're holding up my world. |
[28 Feb 2008|11:39pm] |
So I didn't know that the pictures can't be seen! Until today. Can see already or not! This is my OG and believe it or not I am having fun in AJ (: Wearing the sch uni tomorrow \:
TODAY WAS MUCH LOVEEEEEEEEE. <3!
& I'm quick at uploading today cause sure get scolded. Poor vivien's phone ): And I have F9 English now seriously ): I speak really slowly but it's not my fault ): I couldn't stop talking the moment I reached, bestie had to ask me shut up for one sec ):
Yay I can't wait for the next meeting.
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[27 Feb 2008|09:41pm] |
I am growing long hair (:
Aj's not that bad after all, I'm having alot of fun during breaks everyday! But tomorrow's gonna be full of lectures! Couldn't go to NYP before CCA carnival though, the security scared we pon the carnival \: I don't want to be spilt into classes!!!
St nicks tomorrow :D
I miss you (:
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| We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you. |
[25 Feb 2008|11:01pm] |
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I'm in a good mood now because I keep thinking of the few morning messages that felt like everything was alright, (miss you so much). Plus I made a new friend today called Vanessa Lim (Puay she misses you alot and she doesn't like S_ _ H_ _!! So we were like gossipping about her), and we made plans to hang out together with afew people from my OG cause her class/OG super sian. We were rather high together.
Lessons were rather boring I didn't eat at all, all the way till 3plus. Was totally lost during Econs, no notes no nothing, and she used terms like eh, FOP? Which I totally don't get. ): Lecture theatres are really cold! There's already homework, and I kinda don't understand vocabs in GP!!
Bought uniform and I seriously look like a maid!! Paid $15 to alter one skirt you know so ex I wanted to ask for a discount but.. \:
It's good to be talking to some of my colleagues on msn now! I really miss working and speaking Chinese (unlike Aj, their English so much better than mine seriously), going crazy and high for no reasons. I'd rather work than go to school.
I slept from 7-1030pm just now, I'm still such a pig as usual. Was really tired and omg I haven't been home so early for a really long time!
There's lesser lectures tomorrow and hopefully I'll get to try the school food! :D There's math ):
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'till our time is done
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| Found my way to the highway I don't wanna tell you the state I'm in. |
[16 Feb 2008|09:46pm] |
Unit day today was supposed to blog: I went out with 3 cliques today. (But actually all around the same people) Haha we're so super retarded but St 13 has a future!! We decided that we should celebrate each other's birthdays until Pan's first child turns 21. Haha in case we become loners or whatever and no one wanna celebrate for us. But then I say my introduction during second in take orientation will include my birthday. Okay how retarded I think we were high. It was fun playing ball :D
Jumper sucks by the way. I wanna watch PS I love you!
Steamboat tomorrow, gambling tonight (: But I'm sick and I wanted to sleep. Never mind money more important I don't know how I spent my money this month, I finished this month's allowance. Like wth :'(
Pictures up after steamboat or something, too lazy!
you said i'm playing games but look who's the one telling me one day not to msg you ever again and then the next day asking me to try. damnit so everyday i'm alternating between trying and forgetting right. if you want me back then why in the first place tell me you don't want this anymore. it hurts okay, and it confuses me like crazy.
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[16 Feb 2008|12:03am] |
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you
I'm not part of S&K anymore ): The bung (old one, not Roy!) insisted on hugging me in front of the tall guy hahahaha and we made alot noise after. I miss working alr \:
School's starting soon I'm so scared cause I'll be alone in aj/ny!! ): What if I become a loner for two years, and what if I'm so stupid I can't catch up. I need new bag (Pony is dying) new shoes and black hair ):
Haha yay the sakae people are back!! :D
I miss you. I turned back this time when I walked away, but that didn't change a thing.
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| Take you there |
[12 Feb 2008|10:50pm] |
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Blame it on S&K staff/music played I'm listening to Chinese music now. But up till I'm gonna quit, they still think my Chinese sucks! Last day on Thursday ))): I'm still deciding whether I should sacrifice the whole night on 17th to help them pack up the shop!
Unit day on Saturday and steamboat on Sunday!!! (I can't wait!)
I'm sick and I took mc yesterday. Full shift tomorrow ):
20th, will you be meeting me?
Bestie is back yay finallyyyyyy got people to find me during work! :D And I think the both of them are becoming more Chinese like me!
When forever is just a lie, says:
i also dont know how to kai kou
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
mys
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[08 Feb 2008|04:59pm] |
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I miss the way I felt safe in your arms
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| Three cheers for five years |
[06 Feb 2008|08:06pm] |
Bestie you don't look retarded what!! (Only brother does) Love you still! Bitchy why you leave me in spore with Andy and gang! No more visits from bestie & bitchy anymore.. ):
I highlighted my hair pink, it turned out dark pink (:
I had a really scary dream and I woke up thinking it was real and I cried. It was such a long dream I swear, like a few days kinda thing.
I'm kinda ): but it's CNY TOMORROW!!
youre too busy with your own life am i even part of it?
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| I'd move away but I'm never ready to leave. |
[05 Feb 2008|10:26pm] |
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Grace bbq on Saturday was high and fun!! JX was officially named _ hahaha. Bitchy and I took 2hours to get there from Woodlands though and she insisted on eating ice cream though it was really cold, she wanted to stop at Ikea for meatballs/spaghetti, she's a pig.
GAYYYYYYYYYYYYY! Brother, is damnnnnnnnn cute.
Robert Frost, Robin Hood, Rachel Smith! <3
Cool hollaback crew (:
Grace! :D
Bestie's 17!! We surprised her at work but she knew we had something planned for her already, it was so obvious cause someone dumb went to say "NO YOU CANNOT GO OUT TODAY!"
Rest of the pictures with me, ask me if you want okay (: Lazy to upload all
We had yusheng, cause it was full RR!
The usual (:
Work's been really good! Wanted to fill in the form to resign today so that my last day's on next Tuesday, but my colleagues were calling me heartless and everything and said I should stay since it's one week diff only (S&K closing down on 20th!) So I didn't have much choice but to stay. They say on the first day of school I shouldn't go so that I can give up my space in that JC, they're all against JC!
CNY's coming and I can't wait (: I'm gonna highlight my hair tomorrow I think, my mum's being nice and said since her one is in a package and very cheap so she let me play. Pink? \:
don't wanna go through any more heartbreaks.
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| Hate that I love you so |
[31 Jan 2008|11:55pm] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE YOU'RE MY ONE AND ONLY BESTIE YOU'RE TWO YEARS OLDER THAN ME AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!! (:
Work's really fun these days, I didn't even mind today's full shift! Krys (!!!) visited me today, though it wasn't specially to see me! 3 others did and the usual bitchy did so I was really high and excited in the afternoon really :D Until now my colleagues still laugh at my Chinese, right.
I miss you too Robin Hood, Jx's Robert Frost la idiot ): Actually I think quite long also, that day I found the lunch box and I wanted to bring to work but I think people will laugh at me! See you on Saturday (:
Yesterday night (:
I'm hungry and confused!!
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[28 Jan 2008|11:42pm] |
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Ephesians 4:29 "Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them." says:
i adopt u ok?
Ephesians 4:29 "Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them." says:
:)
Hahaha yay my twin adopted me! Will find you soon soon soon okay! I love you (: <#
Life's been a total bitch, my first choice is AJ (HAHAHA TO THINK I'VE BEEN SO AGAINST AJ) and my dad, long story.
I should be happy now that you want me back, but I can't give you anything anymore. I'm nothing don't you see, I'm not good enough for anyone. islyb.
My friend called me "Emo queen" \: I'm not emo I swear. I'm quitting job soon though kinda sad I like the people there already ):
Supposed to go Kbox (omg why there) today but cancelled cause someone got MC, but.. I think I'm not allowed to go also ): and I'm supposed to meet bestie and bitchy for satay after work )): Oh man I've no social life already!
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| Stay tonight, and make everything alright. |
[24 Jan 2008|12:02am] |
Happy belated birthday Edwin (23Jan!), and thanks for always being there (: Though I stupidly forgot your birthday and didn't even give you anything for Xmas. Let's not be emo about life anymore!! (:
I haven't been blogging normally and I think it's rather irritating so I shall tonight.
I'M DAMN NERVOUS FOR THE RESULTS. I dreamt that I got L1R5 23, L1R4 19 >:( My dad said that if I do worse than my cousin I don't need to face the world anymore wth!
Work has been rather fun though I still dread it every single day. But people there like to backstab, it is so damn scary, because even they are fake ): They're really fun though, bestie and bitchy are jealous hehe :D And they became my daughters, their dad is a gay who wears smaller size for jeans than me.
A woman with pink+green hair came into the lift with me today, I think she was drunk because she went to press two different levels and she wasn't walking straight. Her hair, is really ugly.
Everytime something happens I'll sleep cause it's the only way for me to feel better, well for the moment at least. I used to dream alot, and they're always so silly/sweet. I'll laugh it off with someone else the next morning. But now dreams are the only way for me to see you, and yes like you said the only way for me to feel happy anymore.
I tried to make you stay, I pick up the phone each morning wanting to call you but I hang up after afew rings. I wanted to live in self denial, you know how well I am at doing that, but I'm afraid of irritating you. Each time you picked up I wish we never have to put down, because I wouldn't know when is the next time you'll pick up my calls.
How I survive everyday? Work and not think about anything else. I may look okay to everyone else out there, but I'm broken up inside, I don't find a meaning in anything that i do anymore.
I shall not go on anymore. I've no strength to. Now all I wanna do is continue pretending to be normal, it hurts much less trust me.
RESULTS TOMORROW OMGGGGGGG.
mysmb
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[21 Jan 2008|01:12am] |
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you were bitter and cold but still you burnt me alive
it isn't easy smiling to people when you know very well yourself YOU ARE NOT FUCKING HAPPY AT ALL.
but it's okay, working has become more pleasant now because people there are insane. i was cashier today and made too many mistakes and troubled my colleagues but it's okay i don't have any shortages so far.
i'm hungry but i stopped eating supper for the past few days.
"in case you're hungry."
miss you like fuck
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[20 Jan 2008|12:39am] |
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
YOU MAKE IT SOUND SO EASY TO BE ALIVE
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[20 Jan 2008|12:03am] |
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All hail the heartbreaker.
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[19 Jan 2008|12:12am] |
hahahahaha quotes my sister's blog: Fuck love
Who's gonna call on Sunday morning?
Who's gonna drive you home?
i like playgrounds and badminton courts.
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| Give me something to believe in |
[17 Jan 2008|11:51pm] |
#1 Please know I'm waiting for you. And please be by my side.
#2 I was cashier today for the first time Idk the difference between visa/master/nets or whatever cards ):
#3 10min was not enough
#4 I miss you
#5 I miss wearing the school uniform
#6 Work was really fun today! Pay on 25th (:
#7 My mum says I'm ugly now cause of my eyebags
#8 Primary school dinner tomorrow!!!!!!
#9 I lost weight
#10 Someone says I walk like a duck
#11 I'm starting guitar lessons again next week
#12 With every worthless word we get more far away
#13 I want so bad to pick you up
#14 Ily Iwy Iny Imy
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| If you don't believe me then just look into my eyes. |
[11 Jan 2008|01:20am] |
Some people run right into the fire
And some people hide their every desire
4th day of work and I'm rather fine with it already, in fact I'm in a really good mood today (: Though I feel really bad cause everyone speaks English cause of me, sometimes they even say one thing twice in both languages, afraid I don't understand \:
Finished work at 5plus yesterday, it was tiring cause I worked 15hours straight in total, hahaha money! (: I've never seen so much clothes in my entire life okay! Imagine packing the whole shop's clothes into boxes, and then opening new stocks, super alot. I came home, felt like it was time to go to school, had breakfast, bathed and slept (:
Today was back to regular sales, unlike "Crazy sales" where shirts were only $7. (So cheap, but so ugly!! My uniform is ugly as a result) Alot of customers kept asking why now so expensive, and some even asked me which design nicer please, I just wanna tell them not to buy cause it's really ugly \:
I'm sick of Chinese new year songs! They play it the whole day cause it's a rule, but it seriously sucks okay the songs are in my head before I sleep every night ):
Tomorrow and Saturday, I will only be working from 6pm till 11plus :D I feel like I come home just to sleep, kinda miss waking up late and slacking around the whole day.
My posts are all about working now. Like I said I don't think of anything during work so, I've nothing else to talk about. Still wish I'm at school though.
My mother wrote a letter to me haha so cute and she said she could sense that I'm really upset. "I'm sensitive and I know cause you're my daughter." My sister bought me chocolate haha how sweet (:
I love you more
Than all that's on the planet
Movin, Talkin, Walkin, Breathin
And you know it's true
Oh babe it's so funny
You almost don't belive it
As every voice is hanging from the silence
Lamps are hanging from the ceiling
Like a lady tied to her manners
I'm tied up to this feeling
Love you.
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